(no audio) - And I feel like one of the most beautiful things about living in this valley is being able to see the foothills, the Wasatch Mountains.

I don't know, it makes me just really appreciative to live here, but when that's kind of taken away, it's really depressing, and a reminder of, I don't know, kind of the health risks, because there was no obvious sign of why my son passed away, we were still waiting for autopsy results, and he and I were going to get some genetic testing done.

They asked if I could answer some questions regarding my birth because they're working on a study.

They're trying to see if there's a relationship between exposure to pollution and pregnancy loss.

When the air is bad, I mean, you physically can see it.

It's like this blanket over the mountains.

You can kind of taste the bad air, so there's kind of this pressure in my lungs or chest, 'cause it just kind of feels like everything's settling.

When I first moved here, I didn't think about air quality at all.

Moving to Salt Lake or even moving down here in Rose Park, it wasn't a thing I thought about.

So we moved here in 2007.

We really just kind of focused our house search here in this neighborhood.

We had a friend that lived here and it seemed so incredibly charming.

The houses seemed like a decent size, so this felt very perfect for a first home.

But this ended up being still my first home, and I've been here for 17 years.

It was literally the day we moved in, we already had two or three visitors bringing cookies by, and that's just kind of been sustained.

It kind of has set the tone over the 17 years we've lived here.

I mean, there's just so many sweet, idyllic moments that living here has provided.

(somber music) So becoming pregnant for the first time felt exciting, amazing.

We had just bought our house in 2007.

We both graduated with our bachelor's degree.

We both had really good jobs and health insurance, and you know, check, check, check, checking all the boxes of things that we had prepped for, planned for.

And so when we finally decided to try to have a baby, and that happened so fast because that's what we planned, and that's how it works, it was an incredible, amazing, happy time for sure.

And so it was just really exciting to get the house ready, and think about what kind of stroller to get.

I remember coming back from a family party, and I had not felt my baby move in some time, and I decided to make a quick appointment.

I thought it was gonna be a quick appointment.

I went alone to the midwifes and they said that there's no heartbeat.

The one thing I didn't realize is you still have to give birth 'cause 29 weeks, that's a substantial baby.

I remember sitting on this couch actually with my husband and just sort of kind of coming together, and realizing we have to go to the hospital.

We have to go tonight.

This isn't something we can delay, and kind of making that choice, and making that drive all the way to the hospital was quite heavy.

And it was kind of literally probably the worst couple days of my life.

Coming home from the hospital I had family members, I had neighbors stop by and check on me or bring me meals, which is really quite sweet.

But really, I also just kind of wanted to be left alone, reflect and think about what happened, and I mean, obviously feeling grief and sadness first and foremost, that was the number one thing I felt.

But I also remember feeling like I was embarrassed and I felt like a failure that somehow I wasn't able to do this.

It could have been a week or two weeks later, but getting a call from the University of Utah asking me if I could answer some questions about this survey.

They were potentially doing research on exposure to pollution and pregnancy loss to see if there's a correlation.

And I don't remember what the questions were or anything like that, but after that phone call, I felt really kind of unsettled knowing that, 'cause that wasn't something I thought was a thing.

It just kind of brought to attention that there are things out there that maybe could be impacting people's lives in other ways and their health.

Yeah, I don't understand it.

I don't understand why maybe there isn't more concern.

(melancholic music) I love my neighborhood.

I love my neighborhood so much.

I love the people.

I love the house that I have.

I love access to all the different environmental opportunities, the mountains, the reservoirs, the parks, the national park, state parks, but something else I've been thinking about is it doesn't matter, I mean, sure if I move I'd save myself, protect myself, my family, but there would just be another body that would come replace me.

It doesn't really answer the bigger issue, doesn't solve it if I leave, and not saying I'm going to change the world, but I would hope more people would be aware and concerned and even the people we elect, that they would be more aware and concerned about the place where we all live together.

And honestly, I don't think it would be fair for me to have to leave.

Like, it just doesn't seem... Like, why do I have to, and it doesn't help solve the issue 'cause it's bigger than that.

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